Anyone who knows me can attest to this simple statement: I can’t sit still for very long.
This is in regards to the work I love to do, the activities I am involved with and especially the location that I reside. If I stay in one place too long, I go stir crazy. I always have and probably always will. And it is not a bad thing to always be on the look out for something different, something exciting; on the other hand, it is bad when you live your life through that lens.
The last few months, I have moved back to the Cleveland area for the third time. The second time I moved here, I was not extremely excited to return to the familiar with few friends around me. I fear the familiar. I was returning to the same work environment and the same people. And I fell into a slump. I was looking for a way out of the situation as fast as I could. So I looked where I can go next, hoping, wishing, and praying to be done with the eighteen weeks of work I signed up for. I was living in a state of “I want to be there, not here.” And because of that, I was very unhappy.
But this semester, I tried to have a better outlook on things. Yes, I was returning to a very similar place, new people, but still the same area. Since the last time I was in the Cleveland area, I had taken up meditation, grown to have better self image and outlook on life and continuously tried my best to fully enjoy the place I was at for the moment. My summer (from my past blog posts) took advantage of the new. Well, this semester I wanted to take advantage of the simple things.
My life the last 9 weeks have been, for some, and for many who know me, probably very boring. I can recite what I have done from the time I wake up to the time I go to bed, with little variance. Wake up, shower, eat, drive, work, drive, GRE studying, dinner, yoga, read, sleep – repeat. Kind of sounds dull, I know. But it has helped me remember that there is something to treasure in the little moments as well as to live presently.
Because I have taken time to do a 90 day yoga challenge, I have seen the most outstanding improvement in my practice thus far. I can now do a crow pose and a forearm stand (with the help of the wall). I get exhilarated as well as more serene when I finish a lesson. Every lesson ends with a quote, and that sets the mood for the rest of the night and next day. Without this “boring” life style, I would not be able to see the improvement I have made thus far. 60 days, consistently, working on this has pushed me further than the last two years.
Because I have made an effort to read more, I am more aware of the political situation, my position on it, science, technology, health, mindfulness and other various topics. Reading a paper in a night has helped me use my brain and has helped me fall in love with reading and learning, all over again.
Because I have been studying for the GRE… well i can hope that I get the score I want. Pray for me.
Last but certainly not least, I end my day with a grateful heart. I have journaled everyday since the start of the year, reflecting on topics of “what am I passionate about” to “what did I learn” to “who are people that inspire me” and with a 5-10 minute meditation, I end my night happier than I have been in a long time. I have started to appreciate that I am where I need to be, so why rush it? I can look forward to graduate school, to the summer, to my road trip, to many things, but I look forward to this moment. Enjoying every day where I learn something new, share something new, and enjoy the little adventure called life.
Treasure the little things, because the may just turn out to be the big things.